Searching the world for what’s right here

Finally got myself a decent break and had a walk around Haji Lane after what seemed like forever. Spent my time with these 2 lovables that never fail to cheer me up.

Got myself a long trip today from going to dover to bugis to bugis street to haji lane to bras basah complex to seah street to haji lane to takashimaya then to far east plaza. It was really draining, but hey, this is the life that I always want to live in. Made myself some new friends everyday and it’s good knowing more people, makes me happy.

Well, here’s to another day that I’m looking forward to later, xx

Till then,

Can you save me

Hi I’m Wong Min and I’m 18.
I’ve pretty much spent 9 months going through events that would change me whole and whole.
Day by day I had to teach myself to learn how to breathe and breathe again
It seemed to pass by fast but when I look back it didn’t feel that short after all.

Hi I’m Wong Min and I’m 18.
I don’t know what happened
I couldn’t stop thinking about what I had lost
and how I must find it back again
white paper
finding white paper beneath white paper

Hi I’m Wong Min and I’m 18
I can feel myself breathe again but haggard at times
but right now
I have a handful of people that matter
and how these people set me off
because

It’s the little things that matter.

Adventures

Escapades in Ikea watching this guy’s bestie and himself play “Kart Rider 1000/999/5000″ with a trolley and a makeshift chair; a pillow for extra added comfort. Spending time with him has lifted me out from the hectic school life currently.

Looking forward to more adventures. x

Till then,

And it will only get better from now on

This month has so much of catching up, getting back everything I’ve lost in the past 9 months. It’s been an all new found space for happiness whereby somehow I cannot fathom what I’ve been through so far.

There’s so much more to come with me gaining an all new perspective in life with everybody that I look forward to seeing to everyday. ( Thank you for popping by when I’m working sweetie, you know I love you(; )

Here’s to the closure of April (albeit late) of everything unpleasant, and to the start of now, where I am rejuvenated with an all new found happiness.

Save me from the ranks of the freaks

Tonight has got to be one of the best times I sat down and listened so hard to someone I never thought I’d get close to. I haven’t felt like this for a long time, and I am so, so, so glad that I actually am of close acquaintances with you.

Up in the clouds

Haven’t seen this sucker for so long and the first thing we had to accomplish was get all the necessities for the new pet that I would be heralding into the household. As we carried those heavy bags of crazy stuff and traveling from place to place to just get cages and food bowls, my heart had never felt any lighter with you as company.

Expressing my thanks to her in our language: “THANKS FOR BEING WILLING TO COME WITH ME AH YOU CAN SEE BUN BUN SOON. IN THE MEANTIME YOU FORGOT MY POSEIDON AGAIN HAHAHA”

Counting my blessings that I have ever crossed paths with someone like you. Accompanying each other anywhere with the the phrase “it’s the company that matters” coming in handy as dandy.

Feels like I’m up in the clouds.

And you know better

And boy, I hope you’re well aware

that I’ve treated you like no other

I have never derived such happiness

from another being

Just like Van Gogh who

craved the love of other humans

He swallowed

Daffodils and egg yolks

Reeking of paint oils and lead chemicals

Because he thought the only way to reach happiness within

Was to drink in sunshine

And florescent gold

 

In the eyes of another

I have never seen a man so blessed

And I envy you.

 

When-

An excerpt from Thought Catalog:

When you love more, when you can feel that your partner does not return so much of what is essential to you, you start to love yourself less. You see yourself as worthy only to the degree that this person whom you love so much has deemed you worthy, and if they are not loving you with as much passion or conviction as you love them, there must be something wrong with you. There is almost no fault in them which you are not ready to excuse, ready to brush over with the incredibly forgiving rendering of your admiration — and yet your flaws all become tangible, justifiable reasons for them not to be happy with you. In many ways, the more indifferent they become towards your overtures, the more resolved you become to convincing them otherwise.

While being with them can give you a heady rush of pride and profound gratefulness at being allowed this time together — and to bask in the glow of being their chosen one, even for a moment — it always comes with a distinct wave of shame over simply being not up to the task. Everyone that he/she knows, anyone that they talk to, anyone that walks by is competition, and is likely so much more deserving than you in your eyes.

And the treatment that you will accept from them knows almost no boundaries. Nothing, to you, is wholly inexcusable or something you don’t in some way deserved. Even if being loved by them comes with a thousand asterisks, or is accompanied by put-downs or bouts of complete apathy, it is better than not being loved at all. Slowly you begin to adjust yourself to what you imagine they are looking for, uninterested in pleasing yourself so much as getting that residual pleasure from making them happy, if only for a minute. By the time they leave you — and they almost always will — you will look around and realize just how much of yourself you had given away. Your interests, your style, your loud laugh, your crazy friends: they were all collateral damage in the face of wanting to make them love you as you love them.

Reasons

Why? These are my reasons why

1. Because this time things are different. I don’t think I can recover from anymore fucking up I have done this year and the year before AND therefore, this time I am truly counting on myself.
2. Because I have wasted pretty much 9 (10?) months fucking up really. And now it’s time to go back to who I was. Because I have seen me making rules for myself and breaking them and then getting all disappointed at myself again.
3. Because this is reminder, a reminder of the last part of mercy that I give myself.

let’s never talk about this again/ because I didn’t want it to mean so much to me

I O U

We had to have the days too, the bright impatient days spoiling everything with their unavoidable schedules, their mandatory times that don’t overlap, their loyal friends who don’t get along, the unforgiven travesties from the wall no matter what promises are uttered past midnight

These day where you find new company for food escapades and movie getaways, it’s something new you break out from. I am looking forward to this.